never late to apologize ♥ o0o

2010-01-24T20:05:00.005+08:00

2010-01-12T01:48:00.002+08:00

Wonder how are we gonna be when you are home, I hope that you are not avoiding me.. Just no idea.. Something I really hope from you.. but I guess things changed..
Hello darling.. Today whole day staying at home I am having some problems over here..

So long didn't see you already.. sob

Truly missing you... I Love You dar dar..

You know that I am trusting,
you with my tender heart
I have trusted you completely darling,
right from the very start
This has gone now way too far,
already too far away
My heart is completely tied to yours,
and to our common fate

2010-01-12T01:45:00.003+08:00

I am really stunned, I really don't expect really don't.. but that was really a big surprise.. going to heart nearly..

Please be well for now, rest more.. hope my darling recover as soon as possible..
I Love You For Today.

Let us journey into a endless sea of love
Where dreamers have always dreamt of
Let our destiny take us so ever far away
It is our hearts guiding us along the way.

Let’s tie our hearts, to one another
Promise to cherish and love, for forever
Embracing love, My heart falls in place
With just a loving smile upon your face.

Let’s adventure, in the depths of the sea
A place where deep emotions, flow free
Capture my heart, with loving affection
Love will guide us in the right direction.

I fell for you, I fell as petals from a rose
With you I will blossom, for you I would grow
Let’s bring our hearts destiny into place
It’s our journey of love our hearts chase.

2010-01-12T01:45:00.001+08:00

Darling I am totally broken
Broken dear.. too much stress too much pressure.. sorry what I did to you. I can guarantee I even worst than you.. Why I so wanted you? That's love.. I couldn't explain.. Love is hurts, but I still go into it..

NEW HOUSE 1/1/2010

2010-01-03T00:47:00.011+08:00

31-12-2009 ! GENTING

2010-01-03T00:18:00.026+08:00

2009-11-30T16:27:00.047+08:00

S300 merc benz

2009-11-22T10:29:00.011+08:00

WTF vomit at my car : 0

more photo will be update soon .

I WANNA GET IT !

2009-11-21T19:02:00.002+08:00

I WANNA GET THIS THIS THIS !

wuuuuuuuuuuuuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

LUMINOUS DEVIL ZAI !

serious

2009-11-21T13:30:00.003+08:00

EVERYTHING IS OVER NOT GONNA PLAY PLAY AROUND ANYMORE . GONNA SERIOUSLY LOVE HER . AND I HAVE MY TARGET ! ! ! ! ! ! HMM SHE IS FROM SEREMBAN TOO . ! OMFG I CANT BELIVE THAT . FINALLY I FOUND THE GIRL I LOVE SERIOUSLY YEEEPEEE TEEEHEEE

CIAOZ ~

6 days

2009-11-20T11:55:00.005+08:00

i cant live without her ! I cant live without being your for a while i can’t live without your everything because you are part of me !
pain is something I now have,i do my best to hide it.i dont wanna show her my pain
sometimes you really bring back my sadness but something i am happy to chat with you . make me laugh my ass out !
I'll never forget that first time I met her.you have given my life meaning you were the most beautiful girl I ever laid eyes on... huhhuu she sure blush when she saw this sentence : ) teeeheee
soon again I feel it. I will write to you i promise so I say this....
See you later baby. I love you always.

If nothing lasts forever, will you be my nothing?? hahaha

2009-11-19T15:43:00.002+08:00

Time passes rapidly.
Don't you agree? =)

Sweetheart, it's already 3years we have know each together.
Thank you for being an important part in my life.
You know my life is dull without you.
You know I will never back to my path if I have not met you.

I still remember the first day I met you in a Shopping centre with my cousin omg !

Well, now i have no idea whether there are some guys get attracted by you or not!

Sweet memories just like normal candy, it's sticky! It sticks in my head!
Do I have the honor to spend years and years with you and create more sweet memories?
<3

2009-11-18T13:53:00.002+08:00

I could live life alone ...and I could live without dreams ...i could live without many things ...i couldn't face my life tomorrow...without your hope in my head...i can't live a day without you ...without Your loving arms to...you're the heartbeat of me...i can't live a day without you ..you make me think of You ...grant my every wish without a care ...but if you weren't in it all ..i live because you live .you're like the air I be.i have because you give ..you're everything to me

you know I never stopped wanting you ...you know I never stopped needing you ...You know I never stopped loving you ...Without you I can't do a thing ...how, and who are you loving now.I need you now cause I can see a part of me ...with you is where I need to who's gonna love you if I'm gone and girl.dying 'cause I don't know ...keep on trying when you're so cold deep inside I just can't let it go . my mind, girl I can't sleep no more ...can't eat no more, girl i won't you pull me from the part...would you come and wipe these...losing you is like losing my mind,...Baby I can't live another day ...without you in my life won't be the same. ...(can't take the pain) ...(won't be the same)

circles like I don't care ...shoe the night that you were gone ...Don't want to eat, don't want to sleep ...'bout the dirty way you treated me ...You see I just don't want your pity ...And baby I don't know why I'm drowning...'Cause I don't want to die ...her way to learn to live another day ...Without you yeah ...to know is that why you left ...By the things that you said on the night you left ...You can keep your sympathy ...Because I just don't want your pity ...And baby I don't know why I'm drowning...'Cause I don't want to die ...her way to learn to live another day ...Without you ...I can live without you, I'm telling you girl now ...I can live without you, can you hear me ...You know you can keep your sympathy ...Because I just don't want your pity ...And baby I don't know why I'm drowning...'Cause I don't want to die ...her way to learn to live another day ...Without you baby ...your name) to drive you insane (to drive me...And baby I don't know why I'm drowning...'Cause I don't want to die ...her way to learn to live another day ...Without you baby

LOUIS LOVE YOU !

2009-11-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

something really always brings me back to you
fall in love with her hahaha : )

I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything and everything and I will always care. Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,I will love you with every beat of my
from this moment life has begun,you are the one right beside you is where I belong
from this moment on !!i give my hand to you with all my heart can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start you and I will never be apart my dreams came true because of you you're the reason I believe in love and you're the answer to my prayers from up above all we need is just the two of us my dreams came true because of you

2009-11-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

Day after day time passed away and I just can't get you out of my mind
nobody knows, I hide it inside i keep on searching but I just can't find the courage to show to let you know i've never felt love like this before and once again I'm thinking about taking the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know
what my life would be holding you close to me
will I ever see you smiling back at me ? how will I know if I let you go ?why don't this feeling just fade away there's no one like you night after night I hear myself say
why don't this feeling just fade away you speak to my heart speak to my heart it's such a a shame we're worlds apart
i'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose and once again I'm thinking about taking the easy way out ..

gu dan de nan yi ru shui zhen de xiang zhao ge ren lai pei bu yuan yi . yi ge ren he zui shu zhu ni gei de shang bei
wei shen mo ni zong rang wo qiao cui
bie shuo wo de yan lei ni wu suo wei kan wo liu lei ni tou ye bu hui
ku guo le lei gan le xin bian cheng hui wo xiang yao de mei ni huan bu xiang gei
shang le de wo de xin zen qu mian dui ai gei le ni wo bu hou hui
zhi xi wang ni gei wo yi ci ji hui rang wo qu zhui rang wo qu fei
bi jing ai guo de xin xu yao an wwi xu yao ni an wei

wei le ni er huo wei le ni er meng wei le ai wo hui cheng dao zui hou

MS.V you decide

2009-11-10T18:06:00.002+08:00

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain

Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone

Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground

But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down

You're on to me, on to me and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Dang ni bei, ta bao ju
Gai xue hui, dong de wei ta ku
Ba tong ku, jia gei wo bi mu
Liu wu ni, yi jong, xing fu
Wo men yi lu, dou wang le ku
Wang le zhen me ai shang bi ji de wu tu
Bie ren hui dong de fang shong
Zi dou suo you yi shi wu gu
Ai zhen me kai shi dou xiang yao jiea su

Wo men yi lu, dou wang le ku
Wang le diao dui fang de shi jea lue chu
Jian chi gan qing bu luan jian chu
Dou hui bu chu ban ge xia mu
Chuo wu de lei bu xiao ku
Chuea ying yao liu ju

Wang ji ni wo zuo bu do
Bu ji tian ya hai jiao
Zai wo shen bian jiu hao
Yao shi chen luo bu ke kao
She shen me yao wo men yong bao

' wo gan dong tian gan dong di zhen me gan dong bu liao ni '

2009-11-09T03:04:00.003+08:00

love my ben dan bee bee teeheee. !
i dont wanna hang up the phone ! at last hang up ler hahah !
talk till 3.00am omfg ! my phone gonna booom booom boooom dam hot : )
nvm lahh . she happy can liao horrrr ! .
something always bring me back to you !
you hold me without touch !
you keep me without chain !
my bee bee loves song

\/( =o= )\/ peace <3 Ms.V !

2009-11-07T16:27:00.002+08:00

last night i can't sleep i just can't breathe when your shadow is all over me baby
i don't wanna feel the way that i do i just wanna be right here with you did you know when you're around my heart won't it can't slow down it beats so hard it makes it hard
to catch my breath, to catch my breath . baby i will wait for you
you make me think I've got this feeling for you i've tried so hard, won't you listen to me?cause we can make it we can see this through let me start by telling you don't let me go when I'm this low so tell me now yeah i've gotta know
when this feeling. i've got won't let go .
it's easy to fool around it's harder to keep the faith.If I ever break your heart if I ever do you wrong . It doesn't take much to learn when the bridges that you burn
leave you stranded feeling alone now I'm laying' it all on the line for you

Baby,baby i swear to you.I'm here for you
and i swear,i'll be there,anytime you want me to,i'll be true here for you
so please believe me for these words i say are true.
there will be good times waiting for you whatever you hear i won't disappear i promise you that .
hold on little girl show me what he's done to you
stand up little girl a broken heart can't be that bad
when it's true, it's true fate will twist the both of you so come on baby come on over let me be the one to show you.
I'm the one who wants to be with you.Deep inside I hope you feel it too !!let me be the one to hold you

Late last night I had a dream and it was then i seen her
she didn't need no diamond rings
Fancy cars, Versace , she say she can work herself earn money she's my perfect girl and I call her my Ms.V yepeeee!

Tell me can you feel my heart beat?
Tell me as I kneel down at your feet
I knew there would come a time
When these two hearts would entwine
Just put your hand in mine forever

2009-11-05T19:03:00.002+08:00

From time to time I've wondered
who Ms. Right would be
now i know for certain
And all the world shall see

She is a lovely girl
showered with spiritual rains
She knows the joys, happiness, and peace
the bitterness and the pains

She knows my heart contently
cataclysmic as some would speak
but beyond her outward beauty
lies a heart not shallow but meek

If u haven't begun to realize
the way i truly feel
God proves his will to u and I
with his just approval seal

That would be Ms right
and perhaps u know its true
That u my dear have found Mr right
and all along you knew

she`s being so sweet.
viivi♥

2009-11-01T16:43:00.004+08:00

i loved a girl and a guy who is chased her for one years + ? !

I think she loves him.i wonder if he knows.i wonder if SHE knows.I think she feels it heart's beating faster when she finds him in her dreams.

Opening the door,I think she needs this.Being on the brink ofsomething very frightening.
I have Questions in my head its time i let it out i hate crying in my bed , i hate to scream and shout
but this Question is hard its something hard to say
but this question must be answered and I'm saying it today i'm wondering if she loves me its something i have to know.shes knows i love her
i always let it show i'm standing here depressed thinking she don't love me i want her to really love me so theres no one above me i tell her everyday i love her and i never will stop.
I never thought I will love someone like you . I never thought that I can be happy whenever I see you. But it seems you dont love me
like you didn't want to see me anymore it's like I'm not visible in your eyes
even though I try to be nice and love you.I wish someday i forgive you because your so special to me i cant forget you even you didn't know, you make me strong
You make me realize what is wrong
You make my life shines
You make me feel fine.
and most of all you are one of the few things that makes me "Complete".

Should i Give up?

belive

2009-10-31T13:20:00.002+08:00

I never once thought it would happen to me . How can you tell when love will come?Believe me you'l know when it hits you again . Sometimes it's best to lock up your heart . Every night I fall asleep and fall in love again;in dreams I hold you in my arms like I did way back then but when the dream is over then reality sets in, i cry until I fall asleep and fall in love again.

2009-10-28T20:26:00.001+08:00

Hello, hope you are sleeping well at this time, we really need to talk about it, and get a solution together, so we wont be arguing for this anymore. Please get a time which is convenient for you. No emotion, no argument, I want a peace discussion with you.

Good night.

2009-10-28T20:25:00.001+08:00

after thinking in many kind of ways, I decided to delete the post I written yesterday night after reading you comments. Those I written got right and wrong, which I can't really differentiate them.

Well, just hope darling don't repeat whatever containing the phrase "I can get bf anytime", really hurts me lot.

I know darling is an ego type of person, but this kind of sentence cannot be used to a bf right? since I am not those super bad kind of person and loves you all the time, without giving up on you.

I don't know why I can swallow all these, I don't want anything bad to happen between us, argument between us. You know my past, I know some of darling's also. Can't compare and don't bring past back to our current stages k.

I am hoping by doing these to get more care and love from darling, show me your love to me. Do something for me. I would happy to receive them. As person who loves you hope for some caring and loving as well. Don't treat me like any other bf your had previously, I am different. and I can say I threat you differently as well. I don't wanted to mention because will causes argument and disagreement. So I don't care about past.

We live on, not looking back.

2009-10-28T20:21:00.001+08:00

Hi just now earlier, feel so weird, just a thinking of me, but I hope you understand, I very sad lo, don't mention le, passed di.

Darling, don't feel that I am cold to you, maybe feelings on you just will go up and down, love you.. but then in my heart still burning hot, always wanted your attention, always wanted you to care me and sayang me.. Just like olden days, cannot manja darling really suffering, got problem that time cannot ask people to sayang, only darling can do that.

Darling, you have to tell me whenever you have some thinking, if darling don't tell me, I will guess it myself, sometimes will make things gone worst. Before I do everything I will think twice, and I feel that it is good for you, I will do that. Just sometimes will different from your thinking. Hehe

2009-10-28T20:07:00.001+08:00

DAY -- BACK TOGETHER LOVE LOVE

Hi darling, really happy that given the chance to be back together.. I will cherish whatever and love this darling duo duo.. I am so surprise when I see dar dar's message. Wishing my beloved again. Muaks.. Happy new month tgt. Yayy!!

Darling, I finally completed the fix of my lappy, I am so tired now, eyes gone blur already. Hope you are sleeping like piggy ya.. Love you, give dar a hug from behind.. muakss......

Darling, I am going to sleep soon le, hehe, will write more the next day k... so so so happy, just now had a nice talk with you also.. I just diy again.. omg.. hehehe...

Night Night darling, I Love You For Today. Send dar a night message later when bed k. Muaks again..

2009-10-28T20:06:00.002+08:00

Yes, we see whatever we can do k. work it out together. I really scare when darling talk to me that way earlier, I don't know what to do. Now at least darling show some heart, I will feel better and work towards our relationship. Feel is always better, sure darling, lets feel more about it. Love you..

Thats good if you are reducing your negative thoughts, nope nope never mention anymore, as long as we are good enough, love you darling.. I am so happy you thinks in the positive way, this really boost me up a lot. Hehe, supportive words better than negative ones ma.. Darling, I am coming.... heeeeeeeeeeee... Love you...

2009-10-28T20:04:00.001+08:00

Hi hi , been missing you for the whole day, my phone was like so quiet, darling didn't send me message or call me de?? Now reach home already, finally like settle down, and feel so relax. Then when quiet down and sitting in the car just now, suddenly feel so tired. haha.. Not used to it only, but will work harder for my future.. :)

Darling, sorry for being busy ya, hope you are understanding about it, I Love You darling.. A lot a lot.. really feel nice and comfort talking to you after work, darling always my motivation behinds. Muaks..

Darling write until here first oh, darling if got time then remember to cope up with me k. Don't wait until many days only reply my post.

2009-10-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

sad things dont mention, need to set up dreams and better aims. Darling still need your support behind, really like your words, but you just wont say that. haha. slowly la k, say more to me, really can help me alot.

Darling day -- without you, this kind of feeling really weird, can't really say out. I don't know what to do now, really lost, I am lost, I know that you don't want to talk to me because things happen very badly, but I really love you. Maybe over do, over did, over say already, too much and causes negative effects.

2009-10-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

Dont give up, think positive, and the most importantly, must believe!!

Darling, lets build a future together.. hahaha.. I am so boost.. I will start a good day tomorrow..

Okey darling, serious time, I would like to talk about us. Take it seriously k.. I know bad things happened and hurt you lots. But now, try not to think of it first k. I know need time k. I wanted to know, darling are you still with me now?? Do you willing to sacrifice and promise not to give up no matter what happen? Think carefully before you tell me k. You can tell me in whatever way, msg, call, words, comment or whatever. I really need to know that. By myself only, I can't. We must do it in a pair. Don't be scare of giving out feelings, or whatever k. We both do in a will.. If both of us wants, only will work..

Ok let me ask now.
1. Are you with me?
2. Will you to put in afford on this relationship?
3. Will you give up if problem occurs again?
4. Do you want a future with me?
5. Do you want to work this out?

2009-10-28T20:01:00.001+08:00

Hi, missing you when I am back home again, I tried not to think of you, but still will pop out. I know I will be very sad and suffering when I miss you too much. Just dont know how darling.. I guess.. darling will be drunk again today. Dont like you get drunk.. not nice the feeling..

K darling, good night, I Love You for today. Miss you.

2009-10-28T20:00:00.000+08:00

I will be ok, I tell myself

Day --, don't know how should it be now.. I will be ok, I tell myself. I will keep telling myself I am ok, so I will be ok soon.

Just can't describe those sour and cry stuff in the heart. I don't know. I Love, but what can I do.. I just can wait.....

2009-10-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

Celebrated moon cake festival in mantin with families.

Missing you like anything, trying to hold myself down from thinking of you. The missingness just cant go away.

I hope you enjoyed your holiday, tomorrow will be starting school again. Be guai always k. Always do for the best. You have my support all the time..

Everyday I am counting down to the day.
always wishing the best of all for you.

Hi darling, how are you been doing there? Guess you will have a happy life without my disturbance. Haha.

2009-10-28T19:58:00.001+08:00

Day 84 away from darling, I will do the best for myself and you. Always think in the positive way, that's why I can avoid from suffering the pain of missing you. Hehe. I am now thinking in the good ways, makes me feel good when think of you. Just all the good things coming around my mind. I try to open my heart facing the best ways...

Have fun in school tomorrow. and have a nice dream tonight.

2009-10-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

Hi darling,My heart never lies, I miss you.. I cant say any words.. I am so afraid to tell you.. and I read your comments. feel so happy now.

Yeap, recently very busy, I wanna achieve something I want this year. But no matter how busy I will still have time to write something down here. Guess very long you didnt visit blog le.. I changed it weeks ago..
The next day, we went back to mantin, my popo place, hang around in the house and chit chat with relatives, didn't touch much on the candles because really tired that day..

Day 87 away from you

2009-10-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

Hi darling, day 87 lur, cant imagine you had been away for 87 days, but still missing you.. Feeling wanted to talk to you now... but you offline already.. just now went to social with friends... mention bout my sad stuff. haha.. now ok already lur..

Erm, I really hope you dont mind when I am calling you darling still.. dont know why I just want to call you that.. when free, drop me some words over here k..

2009-10-28T19:52:00.000+08:00

Still remember the feeling clearly.
When you said promise is meant to break. Just to hard to accept it. Always waiting for you to be back. I wouldn't forgot what we said.. what we promised.

I am fully attached to my work now. But my heart still will think of you.

Wonderful trip in johore, get to know a lot of peoples and learn a lot of things.

Tired now, but got things to do still.. hehe all the best to both of us.. I Love You For Today..

2009-10-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

So long didnt receive your comments already.. Dont hope you forget bout this place.. Tired tired.. Iron man needs rest liow.. Wonder how you doing there? Muaks. Anyway, always wish for the best for you.. I miss you for so much.. I dont hope to make any negative effect to you anymore.

Dear understand fully what mean love. Muaks wait for you k.. I love you for today.Time pass really quick. Day by day, I used up all my time. But still having difficulties in managing my time.

Miss you really alot darling.. Afraid to bother you, I know dar dar dont like to get disturbed.

2009-10-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

My heart is thinking of you, no matter how hard I tried.. I cant get myself out of you.. missing you just like anything.. although I am now trying to cope up everything in my work.

But I am just lack of one source of energy, wanted to talk to you and tell my everyday feeling, wanted to hug you and tell you how hard I bang outside, and what is the problem I am having everyday.. I wanna be tough.. I can always stand still..Until the day you come back to me..
When I saw your message in msn, I feel very sad bout it, you are just hard in mouth, but soft inside the heart.. I want you to tell me.. really wish you could tell me..

2009-10-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

Tiring day for me today, came back home and get a short nap, really tired when I am at home..

Darling, I want to clear my mind every time when I am at home, just want someone which can lend a stomach to lay on.. someone can really comfort me.. darling, miss you so much.. cant tell.. but I will wait...I might look happy in front of others, but not when I am alone, I feel so empty... darling I Love You...

2009-10-28T19:45:00.001+08:00

100th day away from you.

Darling still not used to it with the day without you. Many things happen.. Dont know how to tell darling.. I wanted to talk to you, and know more bout you. Darling can drop me some words over here? Dont break the only communication of us. just think in the negative side.. Worry bout you all the time..

2009-10-28T19:32:00.002+08:00

Will love stay after washing off by the waves

Day 102 without you

Darling sometimes its your attitude problem. I dont know how to tell.. But I will talk to you when we meet up . Miss you like anything. So worry bout your homework.. Recently alot of things happen.. And I know that you are not happy at all.. Just hope you learn from mistake.. Dont be afraid to face yourself, you have my support always...

2009-10-26T23:52:00.003+08:00

WANTED TO BUY NEW HOUSE
BUT TOO FAR ! SAD SAD .

PAVILION

2009-10-23T13:30:00.001+08:00

As time flies i start to miss u remembering the last time i saw u the feeling of emptiness feels my heart i really miss u is it love?

thinking of u makes my day the thought of u keeps me cheerful all the way when u are hurt i am worried and sad am i falling in love? am touched by your care so simple yet so sincere yours looks don't matter to me for u are always beautiful at stare your kindness is an attraction to me
am i reli in love? now tat i've realised tat i don't just like u but i love u truly,from the bottom of my heart i don't know, whether u feel the same for me though i reli wish it is so
i know tat i'm not worthy of u is it puppy love?

2009-10-17T22:16:00.005+08:00

aunty , uncle , uncle , me , dad , mum

Went bangsar at 16 oct for new tailor branch opening at telawi street 3 its the 5th shop !

Congratulations

not much photo . will get from the photographer .

UPDATE soon ~ stay tune

2009-10-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

LIFE is boring without friends
LIFE is boring without love

life without friends
is like open fields without the rain.
no one is to share a word with in a day, no one is to wipe your tears away.life without friends is like no water in an empty road.
no one is to give you a hand nor a hug,no shoulders are to lean on.i am running dry, my friend!!
my tears soak the road you walk.give me a chance, let´s talk!!...
why don´t you give me a hand??You melt and bury my tears in the sand.Life without true friends is a lonely life to lead. let me plant the love seeds in your heart to the end!!

2009-10-13T11:18:00.002+08:00

cong ni yan jing kan zhe zi ji, zui xin fu de dao ying
wo zai shou xin de mo qi, shi ming tian de zhi ying
wu lun shi yuan jin shen me shi ji, zai tian tang yong bao
huo huang ye liu li, wo ai ni, wo gan qu
wei zhi de ren he ming yun, wo ai ni, wo yuan yi
zhun ni lai ba fu de jue ding, shi jie bian jing
Sometiems I don't understand you, yet who understand me
wang liang ge ren duo qin mi, shi tou guo shang hai lai zhen ming
wei lai kan bu qing, jiu jing jing de yong bao

ting shuo gan qing yao man man lei ji . you bu de rang wo fang shi ren xing . zen me wo xun gui dao ju . pin le ming fu chu . ni mei you hui ying . ting shuo gan qing nan mian li bu chong xin . yi bu yi ju que bu jian zhong ying . ni gei de yan sheng hao bi . da re tian li yi dao leng kong qi .wo shi zhen de zhen de zhen de hen ai ni . yi wei fu chu le yi qie jiu fei dei you yi yi . ni gei de nan ti . wo bu ceng tao bi . shei jiao wo yi ai ni cheng xing . zhong you yi tian ke yi yong li jin jin bao zhu ni . bi jin ji xu de hu xi ye yao you dian mu di . yi sheng de shang tong . wei qu de hen ji . zai ni fang bei de yan jing li . dou shi lin . yao ding ni . wo shi sao dong . wo shi ai qing de bao feng . ai zhu gong . bu xi guan bei dong . zai ni xin zhong . wo shi xiong yong de bao feng . zhan ju ni juan ru wo xin zhong . wo de wei dao cai pei de shang ni de hao . zen neng ren shou bie ren gei ni bu ji ge de ai . nan dao ni hui bu xiang bei wo hao hao de yong bao .yao ding ni, Ai ding ni . bu yao he xing fu du qi . wo jue ding ai dao di . bu yong huai yi wo de jue xin . yao ding ni, Ai ding ni . jiu suan shi jie dou wei di .wo ba qi .zhi shi wo xin tai ji .yin wei wo yao ding ni

FEEL MY PAIN

2009-10-01T01:29:00.005+08:00

Shen me yang de ai . ni cai dong . shen me yang de wo cai neng rang ni gan dong wo de ai. nan dao ai bu gou . bu gou rang ni chen ni dao yong jiu . Shen me yang de ai
ni cai dong . shen me yang de wo cai neng yuan ni de meng zai ye bu hui you ren xiang wo . xiang wo chi xin ai ni bu hui tou . you yu bu jue shi ni de lian kong mo hu bu qing shi . wo de xin tong shen me dou bu shui qing . ni bie zhi shi wang zhe chuang kou chen jing ni yao wo fu chu suo you suo . you de dui wei he bian cheng cuo shang xin de wo zhi xiang wen xian zai ni que shui zhi yao zi you

Wo hen nan guo ! ai yi ge ren shu yao yuen fen, ni he ku rang zhi ji yue xian yue shen , ling ren xin teng , mei you yi ge ren , mei yau li ge ren
chai neng guo yi sheng , bie wen zhe me zhuo ,
gan qing de fu chu bu shi zhen xin jiu hui you jie guo,
ai chai neng zhang jiu zhe dao li you yi tian ni hui dong,

I told you I loved you and trust you to keep that little secret of mine inside your warm heart. many people say I was a fool for doing just that. but I said that I would do anything for you, and as they would call me crazy. I would just smile and say it's not me doing that it's the love. I sit here writing this and my heart burns with passion, I ask myself when the next time I will be able to see you would be. I think about the last time I heard your sweet soft voice and remember all those little things that you said to me that would make my heart skip a beat. I say to myself I love you so much how did I ever get this lucky? the next morning I wake up from my sweet dream about you. To a call and as soon as I say hello in my groggy half asleep voice I wanted to hear you say "Hey baby, I love you. I can't wait until the next time I get to hold u in my arms again will be". all I can think is wow I love you too, and as I sit there speechless you ask me if everything is ok and I cant help but to reply back with a little smirk, "Baby when your in my life I'm always alright and if I'm not I know you'll be right there next to me holding me tight, wiping away my tears, and gently kissing my soft lips for the rest of my life".

I love you so much. but I know that i can’t have you back. you’re with someone else. and it kills me inside.
I feel like that i should let go. but i can’t let go . I fell too much in love with you. and I gave you my world.I feel like that you’re everything I am.you gave me my one true feeling of joy. and now I want back the way it used to be.Just me and you together.I need you so bad.
That it hurts. i gave you my world. and I can’t get it back. as long as you have my world.
I can’t be me again. i feel like you gave me life.
that you’re everything that I need. you make me everything I am. you make me the way I am. you make me believe in what I believe. you help me believe in me. why can’t things go back? to the way it used to be. when it was just me and you. when I held you in my arms.I love you more than anything. and then you left me. just like that. every time I cried I felt more pain. the more pain I felt. the closer I believed that. my life wasn’t worth living anymore. and that no one cared for me. now everything is different. and I can’t hold you. i can’t be with you. i can’t have you near. i feel like that my life has been taken away. but I want it back so bad.you were my life.and now i don’t want to live without.
I can’t live without you.

Don't CRY over someone They won't CRY on you!!!
but i cant do it !

But as I try to forget you more and more
My body grows weaker and begins to wear
Mind floats, rises to react

I know I'm nothing without you...

2009-09-29T16:34:00.002+08:00

How do you tell a girl, that has a boyfriend, that u like her a lot. Not just in a poem but in real life too.

I like a girl but she has a boyfriend. Should I forget about her or wait for her to break up with him?

When did my feelings get so deep Why did they take that big long leap Going from friend to crush What a rush And I don't think she knows Since when did her smile make me go weak Since when did her tears make mine start to leak Why does this happen when I'm always so strong When people called me Superman I guess they were wrong And I don't think she knows When she talks I cant help but watch her lips To notice their shape and curves when they dip Wait, why am I looking? I don't even know And I cant help but wonder if she even knows Her beautiful eyes are nothing like ours They're so deep and bright you'd believe they were stars They pour forth emotions in raging rivers They could make even me believe that Santa always delivers And still she has no idea Her body is perfection though she denies it It makes my head spin with every glance I give She could put any man under her spell But she doesn't know how I feel and I don't think I'll tell I love how she looks and who she is And how she makes me feel like this I love how she's beautiful and smart with a heart so strong And how she lives every day like nothing could go wrong Still she hasn't got a clue Now school is at an end on the 11th at noon I wonder if she cares that I'm moving soon We're parting that day after schools many months I just wish I could have kissed her just once

2009-09-24T19:09:00.002+08:00

IT SEEM I CANT OWN YOUR HEART

i told this heart of mine our love could not be but then i heard your voice and something stirs inside my mind somehow i cant dismiss some memory of how u treat me last 3 years ago. i wanted to ask you do we couple before ?guess my heart has a mind of its own no matter what i have done , i do , i treat you , i said and no matter how i cry i just cant turn the other way when i am with someone new i always think of you . you are not in love with me ! why cant i just forget ?i am just used to be its wrong and yet i know forgetting you would be a hopeless thing i say i'll let you go but my heart says " NO "

my heart is broken
can a broken heart be healed?

If she is so close why does she seem so far away? I have asked myself that many times. The only answer I can come up with is; it’s not that has went away it is me. when we get hurt we tend to pull away. we pull away from family, friends. why we do this I don’t know for sure. maybe we are afraid they might hurt us also. Or afraid about what others might think of us. we think they won’t understand.Which makes no sense because we all have been hurt. Some people admit it, others lie about it. But we have all been hurt. It’s easier to sulk in our sadness then to involve others. It’s a spiral downward that is hard to climb out of. The more we pull away, the more we think we deserve the heart ache. Then we pull away even more and eventually become very depressed. It’s sad, we do the opposite of what would actually help us. We need to draw close to our friends and family. I know it’s hard. But we need help to come up out of that hole. We need a light in the darkness. For me it seems harder to draw close to other people. It’s kind of stupid because God can heal me, woman can only comfort. The way I found to draw close to Her is through reading

Is LOVING WINNING somebody's HEART.... or LOSING your OWN?

She keeps breaking my heart, but I cant seem to let her go . PLEASE HELP .

When I wake up,
and the day begins,
do I hold my breath
and count to ten?
Or will it be three?
We'll see, we'll see.
It depends on which day of the week.

And so I sing out,
I sing out loud.
I'm just one tiny motherfucker singing proud.
Singing glory,
Glory,
Hallelujah.
Yeah, that'll do.
Yeah, that'll do.

Don't treat someone good ,then you will not get hurt.
Don't put your emotion in, then no feeling of sad.
Don't help people, because they might not need help at all, why get feeling of refusal.
Do your own jobs and tasks, say "No" to the one you believe she is bad. Angry is really a misery for people, it hurt your feeling, your health your study and your future.
Don't promise anyone if you cant , because if you can't keep the promise, u affect someone forever with the trust. Don't believe in other people promise,so you will have an idea of how to treat that people. Don't get anything from other people if you think it is not good.
whether a meals,or a breakfast.Don't change your habit if possible.
Don't learn from other's habit ,if u think it is bad.."drink ,smoke,bluff"Don't let other people to affect your emotion. No "feeling " is good if you don't want to get hurt. No "first time" with the one who is bad. No "promise " to the anyone. Do your own meals,
Do your own tasks, Do keep yourself promise if you make one. Do the right thing at the right time.and Do the Right Thing rather than Do the Thing Right.

A story of betrayal. sad ?hurt ?angry ?
IF sad , not able to study,
if angry , not able to sleep,
if get hurt, will not trust anybody again.

2009-09-22T01:31:00.006+08:00

5.25am 22sept2009 TUES, my heart is broken
I really love you. I was once on love with you when i am young, i had love you more than HE love you. But it seems I cn't own yr heart, coz HE own it now. Ever if we cn't be together, my love for you will be forever. Like a river flows. a star that glows. a strong vine. a sweet wine. I wish you happines, remove the loneliness.LYV , i shall do that ...Sry.

What do I have to do? I can’t tell you use your brain to see I’m in pain ! I’m trying so hard to pick myself up but I’m stuck and you’re not helping What do I have to do?to show I need you i can’t kneel on the ground you’ll kick me around my insides already bruised and broken my words already spoken your ears always shut and you can’t even look
I write this all this thing in my blog for No One.
So many emotions, but no one to share.
So many dreams but no one listens.
When nightmares stir me, No One's there.

No One is my best friend in life
who shares triumps and the pains.

she is going genting soon i miss her. but will she miss me??
No One is there to help me through

2009-09-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

when i do something i will think of you frist then only i think myself. suan le ba. mayb is just a dream .

happy also one day .
sad also one day .

miss my friend .

2009-09-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

With everything we had...
Every moment we shared in mind
I actually thought that we would last
You were everything to me.
Yet I was only one thing to you.
Did you ever love me?
Or was this all a joke?
Tell me.
Did you really love me?
Or was it a joke.
Answer me god dammit!
Answer me.
Don't wait til it is too late.
Tell me when you have the chance.
Don't wait til the last minute
Because by that time...
Either me or,My love for you would already be....
How did this relationship come to an end. I feel so bad that I lost u. I still got all your memories and love in my head I really do. I'm sorry for what I did. I know was wrong. I never meant it like that. It wasn't a diss. Please understand that I miss u. All those times we talked on the phone I never miss a night without you. Your memories are scarred in my head. I wish I never lost you. I swear I wish I was dead. U shine in my dreams. Just like a powerful light. Or a super beam. But please. I'm so lost without your touch. It was more than friendship it was a lot much. I dreamed of seeing you one more time. I'm not going down for you not without a fight. Despite that i was there for you. U where always there for me too.

2009-08-29T15:27:00.003+08:00

GIRL.u make me dam sad dam moody

you guys treat me like this too.

why did you leave me here all alone I'm not ready to be on my own i had so much to say and so much to show you how could you do this to me when you knew that i was weak why make me cry wanna take my own life I'm not strong enough to fight I'm a girl of the streets now cant find love cant complete a dream
hair nappy and now i smell like last weak its cause of you
i told you i was not ready that you could not leave me
i told you to hold on and fight for me what did you do leave me when i was sleep all alone now cant find a job no money no food to eat stressing and hoping ill still be alive next

When you leave, Ill be missing too
Cuz you're a part of me and I'm a part of you
We were meant forever
you maybe special too
But its impossible to be as great as you
I don't wanna let go yet
I wish I could go to bed and forget

2009-08-19T18:32:00.006+08:00

2009-08-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting all alone in my room and once again I'm thinking of my life My past is passing me by See a lot of pain, a lot of tears That's how I remember it My hope was faded away I wanted to say goodbye to everything Now I'm laughing and feeling fine Sometimes I still cry inside my heart But that's different then in the past I wanted to say goodbye to everything Damn, what was I a fool Cause if I really said goodbye I had never felt this lovely feeling deep inside It's a great feeling, called love And I'm so thankful for finding my love It's making me stronger day after day There was a time that I wanted to say goodbye,Now I want to live!

Thinking about our good times
Slept with tears in my eyes
Wondering why

Why
would this happen?
Slept with tears in my eyes
Thinking about our good times
and you..

Take me away, I don't want to see another day Take me into the screaming silence of Hell. Give me rest, let me heal Don't want to be a part of this spinning wheel. Go away and never come back. You killed me with your broken promise You slowly broke my heart But I can't make you love me
Is it my life or the things I do? Can't make you love me When I look back on our days, I look and see your face. Your tender touch I won't forget.

I can't Leave It all behind, memories are crossing my mind, you where my sunshine thought the rain. You where my smile thought my pain. With you bad things feel tight, that's one of a billion reasons why I want you by my side. Remember everything like it was yesterday I know that we had a really great time although its all over, I'm glad that I can say I had the chance to know you well,
I have to write this rime to remind myself, sometimes how it used to be, how great it was
together, you and me. Quit playing games with my heart, because slowly i'm falling apart. Just be honest and say you don't love me, i'm feeling so much pain, can't you see.
I love you so very much, and I miss your kiss, your touch. Can't you see I miss al of you,
but I have to see that we're through.
It's hard for me to believe,
but there is nog more love left to receive.
I hope some day i'll be okay,
for now I think it's better this way.

FUCKING BITCH :D

2009-08-14T14:17:00.002+08:00

"you know, you really should try being a better person,nobody likes a bitch"now those words I should follow I can be bitchy but nobody likes a pissed off girl I'm not angry all the time but little things set me off in a rage I'm the person who takes the world down with me and when I feel like it I'll put everyone around me in a drama filled frenzy I'm anything but typical little miss obsessive who's not afraid to tell someone"where the hell are you when I need you, you're everything that makes me self medicate"nobody likes a bitch but you know what,sometimes it works

Bitch you got me fucked up if you even think
That your gonna stay with him
The chances of him loving or fucking you

You fucking bitch how do you get you kicks knocking me down only to pick me up again acting like nothing ever happened like you do every time? You fucking liar pretending to be someone i could trust someone who was there for me only to turn around and stab me in the back just like before You fucking whore saying you love your boyfriend as you flirt with his best friend
saying you're in love with him as you hit on your best friends boyfriend too not including all the times you cheated on your lover You fucking coward throwing out kid like insults going around with this he said she said shit why not get off your ass and say the shit you say behind my back to my face if you're so brave You fucking shit starter getting your kicks out of talking shit letting it get around so i hear what you say through your friends then you deny it all saying you had nothing to do with it You fucking bitch i hope you fucking get whats coming what goes around comes around I've had your back before but not now, you used me and I'm fed up with your shit
Give it time, soon everyone else will be too.

I want to see you fail miserably I want you to fucking break down I would watch you fall off a building I would laugh as you hit the ground I want to see you OD on meds I would smile as you shake like our friendship did years ago because your so fucking fake I want you to look me in the eyes and tell me you never cared
you cant do it fucker your too fucking scarred I want to take your life away like you took mine Id poor bleach in your eyes but your already blind you lie so much you beleive yourself being in denial never really helped I want to slit your fucking throat bitch get fucking bent or hang you from the ceiling until your last breathe is spent Ill get you out of my head take out a baseball bat Ill beat you fucking senseless and leave you for dead yeah you think Im a joke bitch Im no fucking clown and Ill tell you another thing Im not fucking around Ill fucking cut you in half with a rusty ass chainsaw rip out your liver and eat it raw Its all over now and I fucking hate you
and you dont even care but you will...

I fucking hate you, you mother fucking bitch! I can't believe we were ever friends, You little witch! I want you to drop dead, I can't stand to look at you! You tried to control me, But I saw through. I want to cut off you head.

Will you be my GIRL?

2009-08-12T00:14:00.004+08:00

I'm looking for a companion
Someone just like you
If you become my girlfriend
To you I will be true

We have so much in common
I think we're a match
If you're looking for romance
I think I'm a good catch

It's easy to see how my face changes when I think of you
A warmth floods my body as if I was in your embrace
I am consumed with images of you
Although I have never held you in my arms
I know your every curve and how it would feel against me
I have never known love like this
I struggle for the strength to go without you yet another day
I miss you
I love you
I adore you
One day my love....
We will be together

You are my treasure, my world, my fame i share your heart, your joys, your name i give you love, and peace of mind you give me laughter and thoughts so kind
i give you care, you take it from me you give me warmth, so willing, so free
i give you a promise to have and to hold you give me your love more precious than gold
i give you my trust, and also my heart you give me a promise that we'll never part
the colour of love is like a beauty within,with a story lying around waiting to begin,seeing my girl smile just makes me grin,magical thoughts running through that I can now believe,having one blisful night with my girl that I can now achieve.

you're the one I'd wait for, you're the one I'd wish for,
your soft gentle voice and you're beauty which I adore,
the way you smile and the way you laugh makes you pure,
i stop and think of you especially and that there will never be a cure.
having you in my arms playing with your hair smoothly,gazing into her beautiful eyes with a smile and see her shine this was truly,magnifisence, our love both touch and our hearts will forever be happy,never wanting to see you cry but forever is forever and i'll love you dearly.
waking up to a bright day with my shining angel kissing her good morning,
making her breakfast with love saying a poem while she eats with a smile,
playing my emotional chords while my guitar gently weeps making time worthwhile,
spending our time together sitting in the sunset holding hands,
laying back wrapping my arms around her back neck while her hand smoothly runs through the sand.our love is like a flower opening to a new beautiful life,
seeing you shine makes you glisten like a angel up from above,
looking at her smile makes me feel in heaven..this is one true love.
wrapping my coat over her at night and cuddling her while we walk amongst the seaside,
kissing her gently on the cheek saying "I love you.." whiles't looking up to the stars beside,
my true love thinking she is the star that shines brightly making a wish for her to be my bride,
sharing our life together feels like a dream came true there is so many words I just can't describe..

You're the queen of my heart,
You're the queen of my dreams,
You're the one who I can't let go,
You are a special art picture that I can't erase from my mind,
You've touched my heart in a way which can't be changed so find,
My soul and shall find the key to my heart for thee;
Will forever be amused by your tenderness and softness throughout your sweet enchanted body,
Believe me for shall I will never let you down, Believe I will make your life be full of happiness,
Thou would still be adored and forever be charised, my love for you is like the ocean of love.

LOVE MY FEATURE G

2009-08-09T22:31:00.003+08:00

Just now when JUSCO with JK and Kalvin walk walk awhile feel dam hungry then we go buy bread and eat then JK wanna go Old Town Kopitam eat then Me and Kalvin also follow him go ler Kopitiam . after eat then they wanna go home get ready to watch Manchester United then we walk to the autopay station machine then we heard some crazy sound come out from the machine keep shout ' tolong tolong ' and those scary sound Me and JK tot is ghost scared JK and he scared Me lols! then we run to other machine omg still have those sound come out from the machine .

ATLAST we know.

is the office worker make those sound FUCK IT

2009-08-09T00:58:00.003+08:00

love gone
my heart its hurt now.my heart is crying now
he sure will treat you very good i can feel it
he is better then me
baby i waiting for you really hope to hold you tight and dont let go
love you is my wrong is me think too much
wanna stay with you to tonight
wanna lean on you
I wanna be with you
love you is really hard and tired and i dont know what you one
never regret to drop my tears
dont say you love me when i am sad
love is always part of me love is always there where we go you love me so sick when alone just Passing hard without tears
you choose is not wrong i do not disagree
dont go away stay and be with me do not blame the time i've seen too many it's love again that's not the future but i pretend
there on more distant you're over there in the distant future, and here i miss you
goodbye now good time good dreams it's okay i'm glad cry sad smile me a little lonely, i lie a lot
FOREVER

will always by your side till the end
you mei you ren kao su ni wo hen ai ni

3.00AM

2009-08-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

still love her with all my heart even though i said i hated her. It was just a lie to fool myself.

I still love you and that’s a fact. But a million apologizes can never bring me back.

2009-08-04T16:15:00.005+08:00

When i first met you,

I never would have imagined that I would have such strong feelings for you

I never would have thought dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name

when I first met you I never would have thought that I would love you

I LOVE YOU ♥

You only live your life once,
so stay happy!

Its been a while since I felt this way, I don’t feel right.

2009-07-26T21:12:00.003+08:00

I see the stars each night -
I know I will be great;
I feel people's Pain and Passion.
But why can't I help me?
I'm around people -
My mind is blurred as the surface of the ocean;
I talk, but I'm gone
With the winds with no direction.
But why can't I help me?
There isn't love or trust
I can willingly give back -
I've been offered gold and diamonds;
But I seem very unhappy.
Why can't I help me?
Life could be crude -
Life could be adventurous;
Life could mean "live",
But why can't I help myself?

I am shelter when others feel pain -
I am comforting when approached;
I am loved by the world.
Why can't I love myself?
Why can't I feel other people's joy?
Some might call me selfish -
Some might call me stupid;
But if only they could feel my pain,
But if only they understood.
I never wished to be sad -
No one would.

But that is what I'm going through -
I know things would get better;
I would feel like a baby again,
I would watch the sunrise
With someone I might fall in love.
But till then,
Why can't I help myself?

Lonely on the land I walk,
Lonely cross the sea I sail,
Lonely air of beach I stroll:
This lonely life doth take its toll.

i cry a lonely cry
i die a lonely death
and i still have many things to regret

The Lonely Man
Lost
Wondering
Confused

He was alone.
The dark engulfed everything
Sitting in my room
Alone, unloved.
The night, once more is lonely
As my dream fades in the dark
Tales of Darkness, tales of the abyss,
The story of a boy who was cursed by death's kiss.
I look at the moon,
so round and full,
Stretched across and black lit sky
Rivers of red run down my side
Tell me, am I trying to get better
Tell me, am I allowing people to help?
Torturing the dignity inside of me I learn the truth,
cracking under the daily pressures I've once consumed.

2009-07-24T20:17:00.005+08:00

Open is on 25july09

omg its tmr ! today when school dam bored. help teacher carry tables , chair and those plants to the hall . walao make my pants all dirty darn it . haiz very hot de ma stupid disiplin teacher keep catch me . then carry half ' dulan ' already ask friend go play basketball hahas 0.='' today got 'angin' keep masuk ball xD . won the game hehes . play till finish school go terminal one with friend and meet one ' girl ' ate MCD then go walk walk awhile then go back school play basketball again wait bro come fetch . =.=''dunno why today so pro 3point keep masuk aisehh pro pro pro .

THE END balik kampung tidur

Inside my heart is where you'll always be

My mind, body, and soul belong to you

I promise you my feelings will never change

Sometimes I feel like I’ve known you all my life

Still I wake up wishing you were beside me

You mean everything to me and always will

Our love will never go away no matter what

Until the day we can be together again

This poem goes out to my friend, although we've run into a few problems and are not together at the moment. I cannot stop thinking of her and miss her so much, hopefully we will be together someday. She makes my life worth living and i feel so empty right now without her. Everyone was against us from the start but we managed to stay together through the hardest of times, and this poem expresses how much i miss her. All i want, is to live and die with her.

I miss my her,

her warmth, her touch,

her gentle kiss on my lips.

I miss her holding me,

making me feel secure

making me feel loved.

I miss her smile,

her beautiful laughter.

She is the love of my life

and I want to be with her,

close to her.

Yet she is far,

but one day we will be together

close with one another.

Till that time,

I will continue to miss her

and love her.

I wrote this poem one night when
I was
really missing
z****

2009-07-23T14:29:00.004+08:00

I don't want to be here. I simply don't know where to turn anymore

i LOVE u,but i HURT u.. i HATE u,but i MISS u

How are two people capable of loving each other so full-heartedly for such a long time? I don't have the heart to ever step into such a picture. I'm scared, but i guess we all are. I hope i keep feeling like this -naked&numb. It sounds awful but i think its better than getting emotional. I was broken in so many ways; in ways i've never imagined. If i could go back in time, i don't know if i'd do things any other way. I'm not sure whats worth my while anymore. How far would i go? I've been asking myself that. To tear such a strong wall down would be reaching for the stars. I don't hope for that, i don't want that. Ever. I know exactly what i want. But do you?

We've all taken so many wrong paths and have prolly walked them again and again. Your u-turns might satisfy you but it does not me. We're different, worlds apart. What gets to me might not get to you, what brings happiness to me might not to you. I am happy if you are. Not because i love you or that you mean so much to me. I would never, cause you're downright heartless. But aren't we all? Selfish, just to get what we want. Greedy, cause nothing we have is ever enough. I asked her if you were okay. "Of course she is! Why wouldn't she be?" Yeah, what was i even thinking. Everything you want, you have shoved at your feet. But what do i have?

I was obviously worried about the wrong girl,

Why are you here?
Is it cause you're so used to this that it'd be weird to not turn up? Is it cause you do it so frequently that this has become school-like? Or is it cause you like reading the bullshit thats being posted up? Or that you think its quite a laugh figuring that i'm at my weakest most days? Or maybe you actually do enjoy reading whats said? What makes you stay? What makes you come back? Is it really me, or is it who you think i am? Can you really tell how i am just by keeping yourself updated with the frequent blogging?

I am filled with questions.
I'm being stupid and emotional.
This is really like me, i know.
But its surprising still,
cause it was sudden and scary.
And i feel like just wrapping myself
in my polkadotted sheets
so i feel more distant from society.
Nothing can hurt me anymore,
no? :/

I still can't believe i've come this far.
I should have just died
back when i was 2.

Useless,
complete damn failure.

I want to spend all my days with you,
wrestling over remotes,
playing in the mud,
throwing each other in pools,
fighting over the last piece of cheesecake,
having food fights,
killing each other over which tv show we're gonna watch
& not even watching it.
I want you to be the one who makes fun of me.
I want you and me,
forever.

And when I walk away,

she grabs me and pulls me back into his arms.

You probably won't remember the
test you failed, but you will never forget
the person you were with the night before,
when you decided not to study.

I don't want anything more

than my head back in your hands.

Why should i not give so much care in the world?
Because it hurts so much less.

But to tell you the truth with laid-down pride,
there's nothing more i want in the world
than to spend forever with you.
I have never been more sure of myself.
And i know forever scares the shit
out of a lot of people around here.
But when i think of you,
all those worries disappear.

Its a let down you don't feel the same.

Ps: I have a confession to make.. :(
I broke the charm.

2009-07-23T14:12:00.002+08:00

SAD SOB SOB!!

BUT i can't do anything.
Caused of greedy.
I Love number two.The meaning of it is both.
I want both.

I'm trying to handle.
But the way I do is definitely wrong.
I'm crazy and nonsense.
Fuck myself.
I'm gonna die because of my sickness and sadness.

I wish to be with her everyday.

I want her to be with me all the time.
I need her when i feel upset.
I wish i could scold her when i get mad.
I wish i could kiss her after i scold him.
I wish i can get everything from you like I'm the queen and you're the king.
I feel lonely without you by my side.
I want you to kiss my cheeks and forehead like last week.
I want to follow you in this two months.
I wish I can give you happiness that you always needs from me.
I want to fag with you.
I want to whisper the three words to you.
I wish our relationship could stand for long term.
I don't want to lose you in all the time.
AND I THINK ALL OF MY WISHES ARE SAME TO YOU.
MIOW MIOW GIRL OF MINE :)

I miss my GIRL
I want them to be with me all the time.
I wish everything will same as before.
We are belongs to each others forever

Have i mentioned that before or have i been keeping that thought all to myself? I need to find confidence boosters which i am very sure is not a new mirror altho it does sound pretty tempting. The one i have in my room now is so short and skinny and its not even hung on my wall properly. I need to like stack it up on a box just so i can actually see my face along with the rest of my body when i'm checking myself out. Haha, "checking myself out". That sounded wrong and a little self-absorbed but whatever, i prolly am (hopefully to the slightest degree).

I'm home :) if that even matters.
I'm missing alot of things right now.
I want something new, refreshing.
I need to feel loved or wanted again.
Where is everybody?
Really,

You don't want me. You never wanted me. You didn't before and you still don't now. So neither do i. You are not my moon, my stars, my sun or my sky. Your voice is not the first i want to hear in the morning and your face is not the first i want to see. Your lips are not the one i long to kiss and the warmth of your body is not the one i want against mine. I do not want to text you or have long conversations way past midnight. I do not want to be with you or go out with you or see you. I do not want to have anything to do with you. Cause you don't.

So i follow.

Almost forever, i've always been the one chasing after the things i long for, people i love. I've never believed in sitting around, waiting hopefully for that one thing to miraculously knock on my door one sunny morning and catch me by surprise. Ha, of course i do dream about it and play it in my head about a million times a day but i've never let myself actually believe that it'd ever happen. For so long, i've been going after the things i want, never sitting still. But i think sitting still's what's best for now.

2009-07-13T23:27:00.007+08:00

I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you

Don't say you love me unless you really mean it, cause I might do something crazy

I has lost all hope
Lost my support
Lost someone i need

“When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.”
“True love begins when nothing is looked for in return.”

Lost Without You
I feel lost without you
I feel everywhere I turn…
There is no way out
And I am still lost
I feel so empty without you
There is a Darkness sweeping into my heart
Causing me so much pain inside
Is this just a phase I am going
Or is this more
Is this Fate
Now my fate is sealed…
I thought the Light had gone out…
But the Light has come back to save me

always bleeding
always hurting
Would you still love me?
Pain
Pain over here pain over there
Pain in my heart pain in my soul
Pain in my mind

that i would be doing this
nobody understands my pain
nobody ever will

and i sat
quiet and lost in thought
waiting for her

So in the end,
Love is pain.

2009-07-12T13:42:00.002+08:00

Everybody's got something they have to leave behind ..one regret from yesterday , that just seems to grow with time ..there's no use looking back or wondering how it could be now or might have been all this I know but still I cant find ways to let you go ..i never had a dream come true ..till the day that I' ve found you even though I pretend that I've moved on ..

u will always be my baby ..I never found the words to say u ' re the one I think ebout each day and I know no matter where life takes me to a part of me will always be with you somewhere in my memory ..I've lost all sense of time and tomorrow can never because yesterday is all that fills my mind there's no use looking back or wondering how it should be now or might have been all this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go ..i never had a dream come true ..till the day that I've found you even though I pretend that I've moved on u'll always be my baby I never found the words to say ..u are the one I think about each day and I know no matter where life takes me to a part of me will always be with you ..
u will always be the dream that fills my head yes u will .. say you will u know u will baby ..
u will always be the one I know I'll never forget ..there's no use looking back or wondering
because love is a strange and funny thing no matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
no no no no !!i never had a dream come true ...till the day that I've found you even though I pretend that I've moved on u will always be my baby I never found the words to say ..
u are the one I think about each day and I know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be .. a part of me will always be with you ...

TO : ****

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont wanna close my eyes
Dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I miss you baby
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'll still miss you baby
And I dont wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'll wondering what you'e dreaming
Wondering if it's me you'e seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont wanna close my eyes
Dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I'll miss you baby
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'll still miss you baby
And I dont wanna miss a thing

I dont wanna miss one smile
I dont wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you
Right here with you just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart right next to mine
And stay here in this moment for all the rest of time

Dont wanna close my eyes
Dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I'll miss you baby And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'll still miss you baby
And I dont wanna miss a thing

哭了才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说你永远是我的
为了爱情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快乐我就快乐
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说
baby i love you so much
你走了我的心在淌血
baby you hurt me so bad
想要你回到我的世界
baby i love you so much
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
baby you hurt me so bad
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么忘记了
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说
baby i love you so much
你走了我的心在淌血
baby you hurt me so bad
想要你回到我的世界
baby i love you so much
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
baby you hurt me so bad
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么忘记了

What's gone? My mind?
Soul? No, I'm fine
Not really
Deep inside, something is missing
The love and tender kissing
She walked out herself
Now all I do is talk to myself
in the mirror, with my reflection
My heart is dead
Soon it will make a resurrection
Once the wounds heal
And I'm loved for real A type of love I can feel
But nobody loves me
Nobody cares
Nobody loves me
That nobody is me I can't love myself because no one does
I'm all alone and no longer what I once was But the only thing that keeps me alive
Is knowing that the next day, it might all change For the best And that "nobody" becomes somebody

Grew up spoilt.
And when the rain falls,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.

Try not to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,
I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Fall away, and break away.

Building with a 100 floors,
Swinging with revolving doors,
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me.
But I gotta keep moving on moving on...

Break away ......

Whr's my love one ?

I want ...
a break.
a change.
a true love.
happiness..

{ I was never happy. }

2009-07-12T02:25:00.002+08:00

as the light pierces the dark
friday morning, illuminating
everything in its path
I woke up with a purpose;

my time has come,
this is the end of the road,
scavenging through my senses
I regain my conscious;

as I slowly open my eyes
the sound of my heart beating
and the calmness of the land
tell me everything is going to be ok;

could not help think what could be,
if the sun rose with you here with me.
thoughts deep within, tantalizing,
embedded visions so mesmerizing.

tucked away, as my heart becomes still,
once more imagination does it will.
thinking all day of magic we share,
close my eyes and picture you here.

emotions set in, sparking the flame,
and creating such burning desire.
sometimes love is but a game,
we are burnt by the roaring fire.

Suicide isn't a game,
'Cause once you do it things'll never be the same.
Feelings hurt and minds bruised,
Will death win or lose?
Life:
Live me well, there's not another chance,
Remember that there's only one.
I'm precious; be gentle,
Don't let Death be your fun.
Death:
Pain is taking over,
Sanity is dead.
Grab a knife and enjoy
The sight of scarlet and red.
Life:
There will be days of sadness,
There will be a day of pain,
But there will be people around you
Who can help you change.
Death:
Life is meaningless,
Betrayers, backstabbers, hate.
So come, dwell in my realm,
And ignore the irony of fate.
Life:
Hold my hand and cry,
Mom is always near.
Don't worry about grades and popularity,
Just remember I'm always here.
Death:
Life is so heartless,
It takes what you deserve.
Just close your eyes and sleep forever
And you'd miss a narrow curve.
Life:
The choice is yours to make,
Will you survive the bumps in the way?
Or will you subdue to Death,
And make this your very last day?
The battle of Death and Life,
The choice of your past and future.
Will you bare your sharp, metal knife,
Or will you smile and live?

There is something that puzzles me,

Things that can’t be so;

If it’s not too much to bother you,

There’s things I’d like to know.

It wasn’t that long ago,

We spent hours on the phone;

But now when I pick it up,

I only get a tone.

Once you vowed you’d love me,

And I have to wonder why;

For now when you speak to me,

It’s only to say goodbye.

We used to spend time together ,

Played and laughed a lot;

Now I never see you,

The good times you forgot.

Once I told you everything,

My dreams and all my fears;

Now when I speak to you,

It’s like you have no ears.

When life dealt me a dirty hand,

You used to hold me tight;

But now if I get close,

You feel so full of fright.

I believed you when you told me,

You’d love me everyday;

Now you say you’re better off,

If I would go my way.

Was I just a one-day deal?

Will we ever be the same?

Did you really love me?

Or was I just a game?

QUIT!

2009-07-11T15:28:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU MORE
YOU ARE MY SUPERWOMAN

Another day without your smile,
Another day just passes by,
But now i know how much it means,
For you to stay right here with me.

The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger,
But it hurts so bad i just cant take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you,
I wanna die lieing in your arms,
I wanna be looking in your eyes,
I wanna be there for you,
Sharing in everything you do.
I wanna grow old with you.

A thousand miles between us now,
It causes me to wonder how,
Our love tonight,
Remains so strong,
It makes our fears right all along.

Dreams can come and go,
I know, that baby i beleive somethings burning strong between us, It makes it clear to me,
I wanna grow old with you.

You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.

You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.

My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.

I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.

I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.

I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.

Her Smile warms me up inside
Her Smile warms the feelings i hide
Her Eyes let me know that she cares
Her eyes let me know that my thoughts I can share
Her voice gives me comfort
Her voice gives me effort
The effort to forgive and forget
And not to push and regret
Her touch gives me a sense of piercing love
Her touch gives me a sense of belonging undreamed of
Her lips so soft and understanding
Her lips so warm yet not demanding
Her laugh always makes me smile
Her laugh always makes me feel worthwhile
I am saying these things to you today
Hoping our friendship never drifts away
These things about you never cease to appeal
Because this is the way you make me feel....

I hate the way you treat me when your with your friends,

I hate the way you look at me when we’re in public

I hate when you walk straight passed

I hate that no one knows that its you and me

I hate how it seems you don’t care..

I know you, I know you can’t breathe without me

But that’s a weakness you won’t reveal.

I love you when we’re alone

I love how you make me feel so me

I love the look on your face when we’re intimate

I love how you kiss my neck

Just when we’re getting into it.

I love it when we’re alone

But I can’t handle you and the way we’re meant to be

If I cant touch you, I’ll lose it physically

But you don’t have time for talk you don’t have time to walk with me

But you’ll make time to play with me horizontally

And I yeahh I love the way i make you feel

And I yeah I I love the way you can make me kneel I love hate the way you

Make me feel.

I WANTED TO START MY NEW LIFE WITH YOU

2009-07-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

POEM OF MY BLEEDING HEART

I never knew a heart could bleed so much
and still sustain life
When you left I thought that
I would bleed to death
But then one day
I met this incredible woman who
Not only loved me back but incredibly
She loved me first

As each day passed I found that
I missed you less
Until one day I didn't miss you at all
With impeccable timing you chose that day
To make your dramatic reappearance
Saying "The biggest mistake I ever made
was to let you go!"

Oh no. The biggest mistake that you ever made
Was to think that I would ever take you back.

You piss me off.
You always ingore me.
You leave me behind.
You never think once about me.
Your always so selfish.
Your always so mean.
Why are you always in a bad mood?
Im always pissed off at you.
Im always sad that your ingore me.
I hate it when you leave me behind.
I dont like it when you always think about you.
I despise that your so selfish.
I cant stand it that your so mean.
You put me in this bad mood.
Just for once understand me.
Just for one lisen to me.
Just for once dont piss me off.
Just for once dont be selfish.
Just for once dont leave me behind.
Just for once care about how I feel.
I just want this bad mood to be over with!

Because I’m up at night again poem

Fuck sleep poem

My emotions are outta control poem

My I just don’t give a fuck poem

You know that’s a lie poem

I wouldn’t be writing this poem

If I really didn’t give a shit poem

But obviously I care poem

I never knew indifference poem

So if this is hate, then this is my love poem

Because I’m so frustrated poem

My hand can’t stop scribbling poem

You may not comprehend poem

You ain’t even gotta like poem

You can kiss my ass poem

Talk about me tomorrow poem

I’ll be alright poem

Crabs in a barrel poem

You gets know love poem

Trying to understand life poem

Make sense of this poem

Tired of crying poem

But still wouldn’t change a thing poem

My trust poem

Even when you hurt me poem

My I’m sorry poem

Knowing I can’t be perfect poem

My this is who I am poem

Fuck changing for you poem

You can refer to line 16 poem

You won’t understand poem

Maybe I don’t understand poem

I’m just exhausted poem

Because I see the potential poem

Being wasted poem

This is my hearts poem

Cuz I’m bleeding poem

Cuz I’m feeling poem

Cuz that’s my ink poem

And this is me poem

So fuck you poem

Have you ever been in a bad mood which just makes you want to scream!

Imagine This
Can you imagine waking up on a beautiful day and spending 3 hrs getting pushed and prodded to get you showered and dressed?
Can you imagine sitting in a wheelchair, uncomfortable and paralysed?
Can you imagine the guilt you feel when you snarl and snap at the poor person doing their best to care for you?
Can you imagine how all the pain and frustration, the loneliness and unmet, unfulfilled desires descend into your mind?
When you can then,
Can you imagine how you hate yourself?

2009-07-04T22:14:00.008+08:00

the things i hate the most -READ IT AND YOU WILL KNOW-

as we know , many children hates their parents that forces them to do what they dont like to
i do has the same feeling
the thing which i hate the most is the advice from teacher i know the advice are for my own good but i really hate it i dont care whether what i become when i grown up
as long as i want is happy even though i will be suffering alot to handle money , stuffs
they dont understand us that makes us hate them i hate scolding i always fight back because i cant endure it anymore from the fucking critic from them , they are really sucks
i have thinking to die but i cant do it . DONT know why i DONT have a HAPPY LIFE i know that i am lucky enough to have these things given by them but i dont like it i want is happy i dont like to do what i dun like to do

ANYWAY , LIFE'S JUST A GAME . IT MEANT NOTHING NOMATTER YOU'RE RICH OR POOR ITS STILL SUCKS

do you know why GOD created HUMAN ?
the ANSWER is FOR FUN

i'm so sad
i'm not happy
i'm unhappy
i'm useless
i'm sick
i'm bad
i'm bastard
i'm fucker
i'm sucker
i'm so lonely
i'm so left out

lost
--in
---my
----own
-----world

TRIED to
FORGET you
but i FAILED
BADLY

why am i so sad
and alone

now you understand why there are so many punk emo ah lian ah beng

its all because....

because love exist
and love hurts
love damaged
love kills

now i understand what you tried to say to me
lost love . KILLS
broken love .
ME
metal illness .

i am weak when u are gone

ONLY THE LONELY
WILL DO THIS.

wo zhi dao sang xing bu neng gai bian se me

2009-07-02T01:28:00.005+08:00

If i were a tear in ur eye
i wood roll down onto ur lips.
But if u were a tear in my eye
i wood never cry as i wood be afraid 2 lose u!

I've known you for only
a short period of time,
but I feel as if
I've known you forever.

I tremble with joy
at your every touch.
The feel of your hand taking mine -
I want you to hold it forever.

I glow with happiness
every time you're near.
I want you near me now,
I want to be with you forever.

My knees grow weak
in your loving arms.
I want to stay there,
I want you to hold me forever.

My body melts
with every kiss you give.
Just the thought of your lips on mine -
I want you to kiss me forever.

My heart jumps
to know how much you care.
Knowing that it is so much more -
I want you to love me forever.

God saw me getting tired
A cure was not to be,
So He put His arms around me, and whispered, "Come To Me."
With tearful eyes we watched you and saw me fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,we could not make me stay.
Many times we thought of me, many times we've cried,
If love alone could save me, me never would have died.
A golden heart stopped beating,mine tender hands at rest,
God took me home to prove to us He only takes the best.
..............

You never said I'm leaving,
you never said goodbye,
you were gone before I knew it,
and only god knew why.

A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried,
if love alone could save you,
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
in death I love you still,
in my heart you hold a place,
that no one could ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
for a part of me went with you,
the day god took you home.

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad

If thou must love me, let it be for nought
Except for love's sake only. Do not say
"I love her for her smile her look her way
Of speaking gently, for a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of ease on such a day"
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may
Be changed, or change for thee, and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so. Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheek dry,
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou may'st love on, through love's eternity.

You give me warmth
When it is cold
With You I want
To grow old

You give me strength
To carry on
And when I am weak
You show me how to move on

You dry my tears
With Your amazing love
It must be true
You are sent from above

You ease my pain
You disperse gray clouds
You show me
What love is about

You find a way to make me smile
Even if we are apart
There ´s something I can surely say:
My love for You comes straight from the heart

You must not forget
That I love YOU

My heart is Yours and will always be I pray the day comes when we say: “I do”

These words I wrote
To complete my vow:
My love for You will always grow

The sea is calm tonight.
The tide is full, the moon lies fair
Upon the straits; on the French coast the light
Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand,
Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
Come to the window, sweet is the night air!
Only, from the long line of spray
Where the sea meets the moon-blanched land,
Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.

Sophocles long ago
Heard it on the Ægæan, and it brought
Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
Of human misery; we
Find also in the sound a thought,
Hearing it by this distant northern sea.

The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.

Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, not love, not light,
Nor certitude, not peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.

2009-06-27T23:04:00.003+08:00

the last thing i wanted to tell you

i really do loves you

i really do miss you

BUT

i always hurts you

i always make u sad

you will live happier without me

I don't really want to let you go
I know one day you will be happy
My life be gentle with you

You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over.

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world..♥

Baby,won’t u tell me why?
There is sadness in ur eyes..~
I don wanna say‘goodbye’to you..T.T
♥ is one big illusion.
I should try to forget.
But there’s something left in my head.
u r the one who set it up~
And u r the one to make it stop~!!
I’m the one who’s feeling lost right now.
Now you wanted to forget, Every little thing you said..
I won’t forget the way your kiss.
The feeling so strong..=[
Well last for so long.
But I’m not the boy,
Ur ♥ is missing..~
tat’s why you go away, I know ♥

U were never satisfied
No matter how I tried
Now you wanna say ‘goodbye’ to me?
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere~♥
duno which way to go
I just cant believe your gone…
all the broken dreams take everything.
Goodbye, My Love ~♥

NI DAO DI YOU MEI YOU AI GUO WO

你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说怎么说都是错
你对我说离开就会解脱
试着自已去生活
试着找寻自我别再为爱蹉跎
只是爱要怎么说出口我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁
叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么做怎么做都是错
如果要我把心对你解剖
只要改变这结果
我会说我愿意做我受够了寂寞
只是爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁
爱要怎么说出口我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁
叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么说怎么说都是错
你对我说离开就会解脱
试着自已去生活
试着找寻自我何必为爱蹉跎

Forever and always
When I die I’ll keep on living for you
You give me strength when I start to worry
You lift me up when I’m feeling sorry
You’re building me up with love & affection
When I’m in danger you’re my protection
And I’m the one you can depend upon
I’ll always treat you right, never do you wrong
Just feel the love burning inside of me
It’s gonna last for eternity
For eternity
For eternity
Cause baby I love you
Baby I need you
Yes, I do
And when I die I keep on living
You’ll always have my love seeing you through
I’ll be your angel up in heaven
Forever all my love will shine on you
Cause baby I love you
Baby I need you
Yes, I do
Are you that someone you can believe in?
No one can take away what we’re feeling
Our love is strong, it goes on forever
No one will ever love you better
And when they moan I’ll still be true to you
The seed of love lives inside of you
I’ll be your angel up in heaven
And all my love will shine down on you
For eternity
For eternity
Cause baby I love you
Baby I need you
Yes, I do
And when I die I keep on living
You’ll always have my love seeing you through
I’ll be your angel up in heaven
Forever all my love will shine on you
Cause baby I love you
Baby I need you
Yes, I do
And when I die I keep on living
You’ll always have my love seeing you through - seeing you through
I’ll be your angel up in heaven - up in heaven
Forever all my love will shine on you
Baby I love you
Baby I need you
Yes, I do

The moment I met you I knew,
you would always hold a special place in my heart.
I kept on telling myself that nothing could tear our freindship apart,
Everything god has made is such precious art, and to me you are a mona lisa.

I miss the way you could make my day brighter by just one smile,
I miss the way I could never tell a lie to you.
I need you, like a flower needs water,
To me nobody's touch has ever been softer.

Now I have not seen you for a while,
the pain in my soul bores new festations everyday.
If I could just speak to you one more time, I would not know what to say,
Because the way I feel about you can not be explained merely with just words.

I long to see you again oneday,
I pray that you realize that for you the debt jesus paid.
I know your feelings for me have not gone astray,
If you coud know just one thing about my love for you, I will love you tell I die.

Your pain cuts through my veins.
Drown your sorrows in my pain.
You suffocate on your nightmares.
As your heart turns numb,
Making it harder to let everyone in.

See the sunshine through your cloud.
They take a piece everyday,
Satisfied by your love.
They know you can never hate.
They know you will never feel.

I watch you sleeping, dagger in hand.
Death feels closer every second,
torturing your mind with regret and betrayal.
Poor girl, she thinks I'll never understand.
Let her escape and break into my heart.

Dreadful screams are released from your mouth.
As those green eyes stare at me,
I stand on my weakest point.
My breaths turn cold,
And my heart stays warm.

Take every piece of me,
And turn your heart back into one.
I promise you, we'll make it through.
On God's hands,
I'd die for you.

I wish i could tell u how i feel i know u know that i like u. i have liked u when the first time i saw you.i asked my friend for your handphone number?? I keep dreaming that u will be mine
i think i love u but sometimes i don't think u don't give a shit about me then i feel that u have all the love for me in the world i want to call u and tell u i love u but i cant i want u to be mine but the i don't want to lose our friendship. I have started of u feeling that u don't care it hurts me so much i want o show u what u made me done but then i don't want u to know because i don't know what your reaction would be. Then i think why am i the only one going though this. Then i found out my x still loves me and she said she cuts because of me and wants to die because she says she will never have me.but i broke up with her for a reason. But i hope that i don't run back to her. I love u not her. But how i feel for u is how my x feels for me. What the hell is wrong with this world. Sometimes i wish we were all sims. What they want they go for it not thinking for the 2nd time. Well i love u so much i would die for u. that song Far Away by nickelback makes think of u. I keep dreaming that u'll be with me and u will never go stop Breathing if i don't see u anymore everthing reminds me of u. ur fav color, movie everything!!!! i cry b/c i want u i have to c u or i dont feel right. Ur smile ur laugh makes me glad i havent killed myself. I love u so much i really do. If u moved i would go there for u even if it is on the other side of the world. If u died i would die, just so i could c u. i love u......

Cant you see, you bring out the real girl inside of me? Don’t you care that I really do want you to be there? When I, when I bleed out blood do you, do you think of love? When I, when I try to act like I care do u notice that my soul isn’t there?

Do you see what your doing to me?!?!?!?!?

SAVE MY SOUL FROM THIS PATH! YOU ARE MY OTHER HALF! If I died right now, would you even notice I was gone? I hope you would but I’m probably wrong! If I, if I were to die would you, would you even cry? Would you, would you hold me in your arms? When will you see that I really am dying with out you? I hope its soon cause it’s the truth!!! Will you, will you save my soul? If I, if I, loose control? Will you, will you keep me living.

When I die.. I hope that you do cry…

When I die will you care? When I die will you be there?

When I, when I, hit the floor; will you, will you love me anymore?!

I can’t take the pain! It’s driving me insane! I can’t do this anymore! I need to know now that I will be missed cause my death awaits me and I haven’t even gave you a kiss goodbye… if I die now would you cry?! Do you, do you care for me?! Do you, do you still love me?! When will you see I’m dying everyday that goes by?!?!?!?!?

If you, if you saw that I was in pain; would you, would you go insane? I know that if the tables were turned I would die for you and I’d cry for you.

I cut myself; wanting to die,
no more do I want to cry.

Every night, I lie awake,
want to change, not to be fake.
It feels like no one cares about me,
Just want to die, don't want to be alive.Sadness is always in my heart,
just want to end and die, just want to start over.
I want to be accepted for who I am,
I wish someone out there could understand.
I ask myself “When will death come upon me”
I just want to jump, jump off dramatically.

2009-06-23T14:49:00.000+08:00

I don't really want to let you go
I know one day you will be happy
My life be gentle with you

You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over.

I know how imperfect i am
for not making you happy all the time
for hurting your feelings so bad
and so did it hurt mine

coz ive made a mistake
and i hurt you so
but despite of everything
i still want you to know

im not built exactly like you want
i cant please you all the time
all i have is the simple me
how i wish you'd still be mine

and its already a fact
something you already know
i love you with all my heart
and im doing my best to let it show

it may not be all that clear to you
how much you mean to me
but stick around and wait a while
just stay and ill make you see

you are my light in the dark
when i cant see you guide my way
im lost without your love
please be here beside me,please stay

coz i am empty without you
without the one i desire
the one love i could never push away
please dont mistake me for a liar

i cant take being away from you
i dont want to be pushed away
i hope youd take me back
i hope it would be today

as others can

she had everything I wanted
she was my life, My heart,My soul..
she had everything I needed
her unconditional love made me whole..

My Sunset,My Flower,
My Knight, My Heartbeat..
her baby blue eyes
her gentle touch so sweet

If i could turn back time
I'd mend her broken wings
I want my Baby Angel back..
Hear my sweet voice sing..

Your are my Everything
You own my heart
I lost my Baby girl
Im sorry I made us depart..
I never meant to hurt you
My love for you is real
Take me back my baby
Please take the time to heal..

I Express these words with feelings..
These words I say are true
My heart bleeds for you baby
Always remember..I Love you..

I close my eyes
To see your face
You are so far
But I am serene

Still I am here
Keeping your space
Come back my love
My heart has pain

I couldn’t forget
The place I saw you
I know I promised
Never beg you, sorry

I felt to die the recent past
When you said me good bye
I was as a child, who had to cry
It wasn’t easy forgetting your eyes.

I believe certainty in my heart
That in your mind exits my love
I adore my city where we lived
Where together we were free.

The stars calculated your exsistance.
but the sun calculated your heart.
Demanding freedom from experience.
and the time that we were apart.
I almost stopped breathing.
when i heard the demonic news.
That death was seeking.
Death was seeking you.
The time i saw your face.
It was not what i knew.
My heart was at a slower pace.
when i saw the sickening view.
I will never forget you.
and the minutes we spent.
will i be better and act normal soon?
never, never again.

Tell me why I should feel this way for you?
Am I just another one of is this true?
I don't want to be one of them,
I want to be the one for you.
You're playing these crazy games,
and baby I'm tired of playing.
I've played them long enough,
now its time for the truth.
I barely even know you,
but i believe that our love is true.
I've fallen for you,
everything that you say and do,
makes me fall in even more love with you.
Stop playing these games and come save me.
Every night I lie awake thinking of you.
Your words has captured my attention,
your past has got me wondering.
Are you really worth it?

The days when you were everything to me
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever
But now I realize that was all a big dream
The feelings I have for you will never go
I wish I could take back that one regretful day
The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms
I will never forget the days we once had
Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets
That I would once have to live through
The sight of you in someone else's arms
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces
I sometimes wonder if you still think of me
Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd
I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
But for now, I'll sit here silently
Remembering all the memories we once shared
Everyday my love grows much stronger
Hoping that one day you will feel the same
And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

Your approval is not what I seek.
Just because I hang on your every

word, it doesn't mean that I'm weak.
I tell you that I love you, when I

think that you need to hear it,
but it doesn't mean that I own you

or you own me.
When you're in one of your moods,

I don't argue back at you because
I know that sometimes in a

relationship, you just have to let
it be.

I wear my emotions on my sleeve when
it concerns us, but I'm nobody's

fool.
I will give my love until it hurts,

that's my heart's sacred rule.
When the love that I give comes back

to me, in the form of heartaches
and pain.

When even on days with sunshine,
all I see is rain.

Before I cross that thin line
between love and hate,

I'll take my love away from you,
and save it for my real soul mate.

You cannot erase the past; you must let it go.

You cannot change yesterday; you must accept the lessons learned.

You cannot stop time or stand still in a world racing around in circles;

you must dance with the wind and sing with the songs that are playing.

Let whatever mistakes you have made remain in the shadows of times gone by,

and let love be the answer to the mysteries of life.

2009-06-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

Let's see, I can have anyone I want,
Except for the one I want.

Girls mean nothing,

BY ME (DO NOT COPY!) 22/06 4.44pm

I can not tell how sorry I am
You advised me to eliminate the hearts of the fire
I also can say how to say how wrong
You tell me that the left will be free
Try to live their own
Do not try to find self-love wasted
Just love to say how good my heart exports hard
If you have to I will not hold back tears
The first finger to hold your hand from your soft
Every deep feeling behind the eyes
Who knows how many worry about the number of depression
I can not tell how sad
You advised me to eliminate the hearts of the fire
How to do how I can do is wrong
If I were the heart of your anatomy
As long as this change results
I would say I am willing to do what I have had enough lonely
How to say just love to export
My heart good hard
If you have to I will not hold back tears
The first finger to hold your hand from your soft
Every deep feeling behind the eyes
Who knows how many worry about the number of depression
How to say love to export my heart good hard
The first finger to hold your hand from your soft
Every deep feeling behind the eyes
Who knows how many worry about the number of depression
I can not tell how sad
You advised me to eliminate the hearts of the fire
How to say how I can say is wrong
You tell me that the left will be free
Try to live their own
Why try to find self-love wasted

BY ME ( DONT COPY ) 22/06

When I love you when. Was the first time it was you left out in the cold,
You do not know I was. See you smile by.
I love you but when. The hearts of a number of loss and grief.
You do not know at that time I was you, I will no longer be hurt
Let me stay this moment, once again, when you look back on love
Let me stay this moment, so that you, let you, let you go
When I love you when. Was the first time it was you left out in the cold,
You do not know at that time I was you, I no longer stinging
When I love you when. Was the first time it was you left out in the cold
I will love you when the time. How many have lost the hearts and the pain
Let me stay this moment, once again, when you look back on love
Let me stay this moment, this life just want to say:
I really really love you!

BY ME ( DONT COPY ) 22/06

do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel out of place?
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understands you
do you ever wanna run away?
do you lock yourself in your room?
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming
no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like to be like me
to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around.
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no one's there to save you
welcome to my life
do you wanna be somebody else?
are you sick of feeling so left out?
are you desperate to find something more
before your life is over?
are you stuck inside a world you hate?
are you sick of everyone around?
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies
while deep inside you're bleeding
no one ever lies straight to your face
and no one ever stabbed you in the back
you might think i'm happy
but i'm not gonna be ok!
everybody always gave you what you wanted
you never had to work it was always there
you don't know what it's like
what it's like!
no you don't know what it's like

BY ME ( DONT COPY ) 22/06

Let me find a reason for your balance
Let me find an excuse for you to accept
I know what you are thinking now
And you do not see how I feel
It `s dark outside, the wind is chill
You tell me that time is fooling us
You say that it was you, I do get
Inevitable reality of life of fracture
Let alone an occasional indulgence
That I am falling in your trap
I `m tied, I am hurt
And do you love me or not
I love you in the end
I do not know what to say
Just love these game and just tell me if you do
Perhaps I will tear up the hypocrisy is better than
If I wake up now I will be sad no more
I would rather carrying all the blades
How do morning see you sad in tears
I would rather forget all the pains
to see you in this face once again

BY ME ( DONT COPY ) 22/06

Why should we head
Do you know this was a joke I do not cheat

But this is not a joke
Is to avoid the reason you leave me
What else can I do
I do not love you
I have always loved you
Is this not enough
I would also like to do
You do not leave me
I know that you no longer have looked at me
I wanted to leave

I finally said that the export
In fact, love you, but never seriously said

Perhaps it is my fault
Care about you more than just on the minds of
Do not ask me why
Because I love you This is the reason
What else can I do
I do not love you
I have always loved you
Is this not enough
I would also like to do
You do not leave me
I know that you no longer have looked at me
No need to be forgiven
I laugh a little bit far fetched
You know I can always pretend not to upset
Oh so tired you do not want to see
I hope to give more opportunities
My hands trembling
Hold only the wind

What else can I do
I do not love you
I have always loved you
Is this not enough
I would also like to do
You do not leave me
I know that you no longer have looked at me
I wanted to leave

As I am saying good night at the end of the day,
And you are not here, but many miles away,
My heart is so empty and so lonely inside,
As I wipe away a tear I am trying to hide.

I close my eyes and try to go to sleep,
But with the sadness inside I begin to weep.
Suddenly I remember what you once said to me,
Just meet me in the stars, waiting for you I will be.

When distance tends to keep us apart,
Remember I still hold you near in my heart.
When the night together, can't be ours,
Just close your eyes and meet me in the stars.

Remembering those words, I begin to smile,
And gently close my eyes, lessening the miles.
I can see the stars, oh how beautifully arranged,
But you are not there, no hug to exchange.

I sit alone waiting, with hope in my heart,
No longer wanting to be kept apart.
Suddenly in the distance, a shadow appears,
A tear rolls down my face and the image is clear.

For now… you’ve been set free
Think about your future
Let go and let it be
Take a scale and measure
The happy times and sad
You will see the good things
Weigh much less than the bad
Stop and think how honest
And true you always were
Count the times that you deceived
Guess what – there are none there!
Think about the happiness
That you so often missed
You were nothing but her puppet
You’re pretty...un-restricted
And can do what you please
You do not have to keep a diary
Of your every cough and sneeze
You owe no explanations
Let the truth be told
Find yourself somebody good
That you can touch and hold
The one that you were true to
Pulled your strings for years
Don’t let her rule long distance
Ignore her shallow tears!

When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time,
I got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle,
with a heart so true.
You've survived your life
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
So I have decided
time answers all.
If it is meant to be
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever?
I guess I will have to wait awhile.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead
but always remember
what I have said.
Meeting you has changed my life
and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go.
Remember me always
and I will too.
I always think of
me and you

why is it when I look in your eyes,
I see the love burning inside me.
why is it when you hug me,
the world melts with us.

why is it when you leave,
I can't find myself.
why is it when you say bye,
it seems like forever.

why is it when the phone rings,
I answer just to hear if it's your voice.
why is it when you don't call,
I wonder what you are doing.

why is it that I can't breath,
whenever I think about you.
why is it that I can't speak,
whenever I talk about you.

why is it when I'm around you,
you want to walk away.
why is it when I hug you,
you don't feel the same.

why is it when you look into my eyes,
you just see a girl looking back at you.
why is it when you leave,
you leave to be with her.

why is it when you say bye,
you say hello to her.
why is it when my phone rings,
it's not you.

why is it when I call you,
you don't answer.
why is it when I ask what you think about me,
you day that I'm just cool.

why me, why you,
I don't know yet but I'm hoping you can find
the love I have for you and hope one day that love would turn into something more than what meets the eye.

n loving relationships, there are several important things to know. One of these is that the key to a successful relationship is being able to apologize. The more intimately you are involved with another person, the more difficult it becomes to say I'm sorry. You are aware of her faults and she is aware of yours. It is very easy in the heat of battle to hurt your partner in a very sensitive place. Your partner trusted you by forming a relationship and letting herself be vulnerable. When you say, I'm sorry, it must be done with the sensitivity to understand the line that was crossed.

How could I be so stupid
To let you slip away
I had you in my arms
But I let you slip away

I want you back
But now it's too late
I've already said goodbye
And now love had turned to hate

I want to go back in time
And fix all that was wrong
Change all of my regrets
So we didn't fight as long

The regrets are what f**ked it up
And they were all my fault
I was so immature
I should of acted like an adult

I broke my own heart
When I walked out on you
Now it's too late
And I can't undo

I still love you
But no-body knows
We are no longer together
Because of what I chose

It was a bad decision
And now I want you here
Never far away
Always near

So please take me back
And catch me when I fall
Cause I need you right now
More than anything at all

I WANT !

2009-06-20T01:46:00.000+08:00

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So fuck off if you don't like me,
I don't give a damn to those dick head brainless ass who is not bright enough to notice that i'd insult them.

I don't know what's LOVE means.
Maybe love to me is just only a feeling.
If i'm in love with that person,
I don't care whatever it takes for me to be with her.
I will love her till the end of time,
Every breath of mine,
I will hold her by my side,
I don't want to miss that chance,
I dare to love,
I dare to hate,
I believed that nothing is forever.
If there is someone that can prove to me what is called FOREVER!

I like to be alone sometimes,
I like those people who cares about me,
I like those people who understand me,

Hate bitches,
Hate sluts,
Hate whores,
Hate hoes,
Hate gold diggers,
Hate crazy bitches too.

Please fuck off!